Lukewarm

I have been thinking a lot lately about being lukewarm when it comes to my walk with God.  I know that God has a calling on my life.  I have been through so much in life from sexual abuse as a child, suicide attempt, coverting to Islam, bad marriage, pregnant with a child and told there was a 90% chance he would die at birth,….the list goes on an on.

Through it all God’s mercy and grace has saved me.  Saved me from my own bad decisions, saved me during my rebellion, saved me when I didn’t want to be saved. 

So why is it so hard for me to live OUTRIGHT for God?  Why am I concerned about what others will think?  I have allowed my pass sins to dictate who I can be in the future.  I know that it is time for me to put away childish things.  Rebellion is a childish thing, purposely sinning when I know better is childish.  Living for man instead of for God is childish. 

I can no longer be lukewarm – God has too much for me to do in His kingdom.  I also realize that all those who trully love me will accept the new me.  That’s right I am new…I am not the same Erica.  I have been called and sealed by God and it is time for me to walk in my annoiting.  To use my gifts – to pray without ceasing!

Don’t allow your past mistakes to dictate  your present or future.  If you know to do better than do better!  No one knows the time or the hour – there is no guarantee that you will have time to get right.  If you know you are not right – get right now!